Oh, it is so very difficult to be patient with ups and downs. It doesn't matter what the ups and downs are referring to - money, blood sugar numbers, energy levels, motivation levels - it's the ups and downs that get me.
The thing is, I'm not so sure that we're created to be at the same level for very long. What I mean is, it seems like most of human history has been a series of ups and downs - and so, even though I've only been diagnosed a diabetic for less than two months - the concept of ups and downs really is a quite familiar one to me. I've lived it!
I guess like with anything else, it's what we do with ups and downs that make us who we are.
Today has been a strangely emotional day for me for different reasons. I'm at a conference, and we have some down time right now before dinner tonight. These conferences can be killers for introverts like me. I get to a point where it's a constant battle of wanting to see and be with my friends and not wanting to see another person - PERIOD. (Like, seriously - get the hell away!)
So, during our down time today, I headed back to the hotel. How I wanted - in my emotional place - some kind of sweet munchy thing! Give me some damn M&Ms - an old favorite pig-out food of mine.
I came up to my room and remembered I had brought some pre-portioned crispy-chocolate things with me but before I even got into those, I checked my BG level, just to be sure. With a good level, I ate the crispy-chocolate things and enjoyed them, and somehow doing the whole process (rather than submitting to my down feelings) settled my heart tremendously.
It is so very hard to be patient with ups and downs. But I really believe patience is worth it in the end.
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